ZiSeYueLiang

 

Merry Christmas to everyone~!

Wishing all the best to everyone.

 

 

Thank you very much for all the , , ppl who gives and comments you all gave.  I'm very thankful for you all and everything, pardon me if I didn’t reply or reply late. I'm very slow when it comes to replying because my English not very good and I'm very slow at processing specially long comments. Once again, thank you for everything!

 

 

 

Hardly ever update journal. (only once or twice a year. lol)

I'm sure nobody is interested in my journal. lol. It’s ok. I just wanna write  something that have been on my mind on this journal.

Been through some emotional (mind) journey this past half year. Experienced some new feeling that I never would have thought of happen in my life but it did happen. It makes me realise how fragile my heart and mind is, it's a thankful and meaningful life lesson too. See through some things, it makes me become more visible of who I want to become of and not to be. I have to become even more mature in mentality and to be even more thankful, cherish and be grateful for everything than ever.

Hello everyone.  

Wishing everyone  Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  

 I wishes everyone filled with the joy, love and happiness throughout the coming new year.

 

Pardon me for my absent in DA for such a long time. Computer have been down for quite sometime..   using my bro's laptop. (Till now ,it's still not been fixed yet not sure what problem.... still need sometime though.  I'm still waiting for my bro's friend to fix it when he is not busy...  thanks for taking your time coming back and forth helping us fixing the com.) 

Most of the time if I did not post anything here in DA for certain time probably because computer went crazy, personal stuff came up and artblock.

 

 

Just something on my mind I feel like writing down. You can skip reading if you don't want to, it nothing interesting lol.  ^-^

 

Since 2011's back surgery, there are some things I no longer can do like I used to. Can't sit for too long is one of it.. it'll cause pain to my lower back and nerve pain will spread from lower back to right leg. So after drawing/painting 1-2 hour it's the limit..( I tried many times sitting longer than I should.. nope no good.)  I need to rest or stand up move around, otherwise the back and right leg will be in pain for a very long time, I mean weeks to many months..

These several year, I took longer time completing a drawing. Still, I every time I start drawing,.. I'll will end up sticking onto the chair not wanting to get up, want to spend more time drawing. bad habit..

Somehow even my mind set seems to have some changes after surgery. Perhaps also the cause of artblock.

 I used to thought drawing was important to me. I like to draw a lot, it makes me happy. But after surgery, reality hits me hard especially when it comes to health. Only then I realise drawing is no longer important if I don't have a good health. Before surgery, I was able to come up with simple ideas and draw easily but now nothing comes in my mind no matter what. I was not able to come up with and ideas for drawing. Mind total blank.

A lots of time, I felt frustrated.  I feel bit sad and bad not able to post more nice drawings on DA.   

If anyone have notice my DA gallery, I post lots of the drawings before 2011 and it gets less and less after 2012 hardly posts much these several years.  

Imagination is definitely not my forte, the thoughts of not relying on references while drawing is a no no. Stubbornness got me nowhere. I always give myself too much pressure, always wanted to drawing better, even when I draw well, I find it’s not good enough.

But now I think I need to stop and relax , stop pressuring and give time to myself whenever it comes to drawing.

Learn to enjoy the process instead of the outcome.  

Instead of pressuring to do better. It'll only backfire.

I want to be happy again whenever I draw~!

 

I'll keep posting drawings in DA whenever I can, but might take a longer time to complete though. 

Merry Christmas and have a Happy New Year minna~!!!   

I wish everyone good health and stay happy always~!

Hello to new watchers, people who comments or add  . Sorry, I'm not a person that's very good with words. So I always keep it simple. Sincerely, thank you so much for everything everyone.     

It's been very long since I log in to DA.. These few years hardly draw anything  , having major art block for so long..  and because of the new tv/monitor I can't adjust it very well it either too bright or too dark to view that's why, I hardly draw or paint cg.. Hope I can draw more and less art block, hope to upload more drawings or fanarts for everyone to view in 2015.  






Take care~!  

 Hello everyone~!

 I wish everyone in DA a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year~!   May all your dreams come true~!! 

Stay healthy and happy everyone~!!

Hello~! How is everyone in DA~?
Thank you for all the , and comments~!
Just a update of me..  

Pardon me, this post maybe slightly long boring one.. Just skip it if anyone doesn't wanna read.

I have been having nerves pain problem again.. (Finally, I can slowly forget the nerve pain.. but it came back once more..)  I thought the screws in my back is causing all these since I had a fall last year, but the doctor say the screws is still properly intact, he is more worried maybe it's the upper part  (forget which part.. L3, L4??? ) causing this.. (Still unconfirmed, I haven't went for mri scan yet..)

Yup… They told us, they only deals with the most serious problem first..     (Why can't just fix it once and for all.. ) T.T  

Don't tell me I have to go for another round of surgery again… Cause I really don't want..  

Now even my right side of the face is having some nerves issue.. Went to er just 2 days ago.. I thought l'm gonna have a stroke or something.. (Scared the heck out of me.. ) I felt tingling around my lip on and off since Tuesday, by Thursday evening, I felt electric sensation on parts of my cheek and ear, burning or icy cold feelings for 10-20 seconds more or less I think.. on and off for several times.. (I remember around 2 years ago I have tingling around my lips too but later it vanish.. but dunno why this time seems a little more serious..) It's really uncomfortable..
By Friday, my family want me to try out acupuncture.. But the Chinese physician told me it better to see a doctor instead since it may be a sign of stroke since lots of people have signs like these.. In the end, the doctor told me it's not stroke.. (Somewhat relieved but still scared. ) No need for further investigate.. But I have to see a neurologist or something. (Next month...) Zzzzz….

Really, why is it like this..
Okay, lets skip the boring stuff..

Don't have much to drawing to post these days.. my bad.. it's hard for me to sit so long.. (nerve pain..) although I can stand and draw but it end up stress my neck instead.. (Also lack of inspiration.. Pure art blockage too.. I need more ideas and motivations..)  

In the mean time, take good care everyone!!! ^-^  Gotta go and rest~!!