Merry Christmas~!!

Hello everyone.  

Wishing everyone  Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  

 I wishes everyone filled with the joy, love and happiness throughout the coming new year.

Pardon me for my absent in DA for such a long time. Computer have been down for quite sometime..   using my bro's laptop. (Till now ,it's still not been fixed yet not sure what problem.... still need sometime though.  I'm still waiting for my bro's friend to fix it when he is not busy...  thanks for taking your time coming back and forth helping us fixing the com.) 

Most of the time if I did not post anything here in DA for certain time probably because computer went crazy, personal stuff came up and artblock.

Just something on my mind I feel like writing down. You can skip reading if you don't want to, it nothing interesting lol.  ^-^

Since 2011's back surgery, there are some things I no longer can do like I used to. Can't sit for too long is one of it.. it'll cause pain to my lower back and nerve pain will spread from lower back to right leg. So after drawing/painting 1-2 hour it's the limit..( I tried many times sitting longer than I should.. nope no good.)  I need to rest or stand up move around, otherwise the back and right leg will be in pain for a very long time, I mean weeks to many months..

These several year, I took longer time completing a drawing. Still, I every time I start drawing,.. I'll will end up sticking onto the chair not wanting to get up, want to spend more time drawing. bad habit..

Somehow even my mind set seems to have some changes after surgery. Perhaps also the cause of artblock.

 I used to thought drawing was important to me. I like to draw a lot, it makes me happy. But after surgery, reality hits me hard especially when it comes to health. Only then I realise drawing is no longer important if I don't have a good health. Before surgery, I was able to come up with simple ideas and draw easily but now nothing comes in my mind no matter what. I was not able to come up with and ideas for drawing. Mind total blank.

A lots of time, I felt frustrated.  I feel bit sad and bad not able to post more nice drawings on DA.   

If anyone have notice my DA gallery, I post lots of the drawings before 2011 and it gets less and less after 2012 hardly posts much these several years.  

Imagination is definitely not my forte, the thoughts of not relying on references while drawing is a no no. Stubbornness got me nowhere. I always give myself too much pressure, always wanted to drawing better, even when I draw well, I find it’s not good enough.

But now I think I need to stop and relax , stop pressuring and give time to myself whenever it comes to drawing.

Learn to enjoy the process instead of the outcome.  

Instead of pressuring to do better. It'll only backfire.

I want to be happy again whenever I draw~!

I'll keep posting drawings in DA whenever I can, but might take a longer time to complete though.